The mother of 14 children regrets the career of a stripper and filming in adult films

Natalie Suleman, formerly known as Nadia "Octomom", told in a candid interview about how ashamed she was that in the past she led a humiliating and exploitative lifestyle. Natalie, who gave birth to eight-year-olds in 2009, starred in porn films and worked as a stripper to somehow make ends meet. She admitted that she got hooked on Xanax to drown out the feeling of shame from her work, but now it's in the past.

Natalie also had to go through several plastic surgeries: she enlarged her breasts after she had to breastfeed three children, and had liposuction after the birth of the eight-year-olds. "The surgery didn't touch my face, but in 2008 I enlarged my lips, and it looked terrible. I was so ashamed and embarrassed," recalls a mother with many children. She now lives in California and has returned to a career as a consultant. "No one hates Eight—Mom more than I do," Natalie confessed.

Natalie already had six children at the time when she went to the clinic with a desire to go through in vitro fertilization. She wanted to give birth to only one child, but doctors implanted her with 12 embryos, citing the fact that they most likely would not survive. However, in the end, this situation led to the fact that Natalie gave birth to eight twins. Natalie is against abortion, she likes to have children. In addition to hatred and disgust from critics, she had to face personal tragedies: in 2014, Natalie's mother died in her arms from ovarian cancer, and a year later her father was paralyzed after a serious accident.

In 2009, Natalie was very criticized for wanting to give birth to eight children, being an unemployed mother of six.

That's when she gained fame: a photo of a huge belly of a pregnant Natalie went on the Internet at breakneck speed.

In order to somehow make ends meet, Natalie had to embark on all career hardships. She starred in porn movies, danced in a strip club and eventually also got hooked on anti-anxiety psychotropic drugs to drown out the feeling of shame from what she has to do.

Admitting that you once had an addiction is no doubt not easy. However, Natalie says that she is full of the desire to say goodbye to the personality traits of the Eight-year-old and is ready to fight in a desperate attempt to save her life.

What can I say, you can't do with a sedan here: every day Natalie gets up at 5 in the morning to take the children to school.

Natalie has not been married for 15 years and is not going to build a relationship with anyone yet. She wants to concentrate on raising children.

"I'd rather become homeless with my 14 children than let any of my girls go down the crooked path that I walked myself," Natalie said.

"The turning point for me was when I returned home after a photo shoot in a bikini and saw my daughter flaunting around the house in a dress and stilettos," recalls Natalie. After the birth of eight children in 2009, Natalie is still recovering: she has constant pain, and doctors are even surprised how she can speak.

All of Natalie's children follow a vegetarian diet. They do not eat fast food and regularly take part in five-kilometer races organized to attract public attention to the problem of autism.

Natalie has been working as a consultant for the last three and a half years. "For some reason, many people think that I am some kind of dependent. Yes, the state helps us, we get food stamps, but I'm not sitting idle," says Natalie.

Natalie and her children look happy relaxing in a park near their home.

"Marriage? I'm married to my family. I don't have the opportunity to distract myself from my children and pay attention to some regular crook," Natalie said. Now she is focused on her future: the girl wants to reach a standard of living where she can afford to completely refuse to receive social benefits. In addition, Natalie admitted that her family has never had the opportunity to go on vacation and this is another goal.

"No one hates Eight-Mom more than I do myself. The lifestyle I led was terrible. Now everything is different," Natalie said.